Did-I-Hear-Torture

you promised me stargazing, but all you gave me, were constellations down my leg you promised me walks on the beach, but all you gave me, was sand down my throat you promised me hot cocoa in the winter, but all you gave me, were blue toes and a cold nose you promised me we'd bake cookies, but all you gave me, was cigarette burns along my arms you promised me cuddled up move nights, but all you gave me, were soggy cheaks and a stinging lip you promised me so much, but the only promise you've kept, was that you'd never leave

My soul feels like it is being eaten alive by shiny words that have no meaning and by hungry thirsty people who gulp me down without a second thought until I eventually become a corpse scratching at the dirt and clawing my way from the others But no matter how much I try to leave I'm still pulled back and swallowed down into nothingness My light feels dim like nothing is being illuminated on the sidewalks when I roam but something calls destructive souls to me like I'm calling children home for supper and suddenly there's more than I can imagine and remember giving birth to I claw at my throat to hold back the words I want to really say and